Ever Darkened Love...

The evening sun disappears
Behind a blackened landscape
My eyes attract no more tears
For too many have escaped...

I stare off into the distance
Lost in a memory from my past
I know it's no longer in existence
Yet it haunts me everlast...

Forever more I search for you
But this distance is too great
My heart keeps on moving through
Leaving behind only fate...

The mourning that some call life
I searcn for someone to hide
A road of alcohol lessens strife
Yet it burns me alive inside...

My soul is as hollow as the cavity
That once held my heart's emotion
A sudden pain courses through body
I've cut my arms without realization...

My body insists on living
While my mind does not at all
My hands are made unforgiving
With blade on my body they crawl...

I drain myself quite often now
A life less longing for future
I don't care when, don't care how
My way of life, self torture...

No one knows the pain that you gave
Neither I have the power to define
But I can't bear it, I'm tired to crave
On my body I follow my own lines...

My body is getting weaker
My mind might soon win the war
I'm plunging into a hole, deeper
Watching my fate from afar...

Yet my eyes search for light
Up ahead piercing the cage I've built
Within myself it's made of plight
Depression, anger, hate and guilt...

Misery that I've never known
I'm towards the end of my rope
A hand reaches me on its own
Defining me, creating new hope...

Pulls me into warm embrace
Now my eyes seem full of tears
They stream down all over my face
Washing away all my nightmares...

Soft lips kiss my tears away
And a voice whispers in my ear
Telling me it's going to be okay
Expressing love I always wanted to hear...

Heavy breathings make me fall asleep
Spreading new breath in the air
But everything goes dark again, deep
For the gentle hands that stroke my hair...

My Love...

My love is not as deep as the ocean,

Neither as far as the sky;

My love,
You might not get it's notion
So, shouldn't be questioned why...

My love for you is as real as my dreams
Without you too long unfulfilled;
There are no valleys with running streams
No mountains, nothing hilled...

My love is as narrow as valves of my heart,
It may not be blood's worth;
Yet when I cut my flesh apart
Flows the beauty of a baby's birth...

I love to draw a little house
Surrounded by flowers of nature;
Pictured in heaven for you to arouse
And to let in the light of future...

I'm not Shakespeare, Dante or Shelley
To offer you extravaganza;
Yet my love for you is in my poetry -
In every word, line and stanza... 

Someone, Somewhere...

Immobile I rest,
Alone in this empty thought;
Suffering I rest,
Living a slow meaningless life;
Swaddled in black -
I rest...

All I can hear is deafness...
All I can see is darkness...
All I can smell is smell-less...
All I can say is speechless...
All I can feel is numbness...
All I can touch is nothingness...
All I can rest is restlessness...

"Who is there???"
Sometimes,
During these bottomless nights
Such states come and go
As fleetingly as light
And someone cries;
Miles away...
Inches away...
Inside me
Somewhere,
Someone lies...

Descended Angel...

Descending -
From your dark realm of night,
Leaving your throne of laughing stars;
Quietly drifting through lonely light -
Protector of shadows,
Artist of scars...

Visualizing,
Your beauty;
What brought you to me?
Collecting scattered pieces of dreams;
Let me drink the sound of your sympathy,
Seduce me with your silent screams...

Embrace,
Touch,
Want
And feed me tonight,
Bathe me in your unholy fire;
Smother me in your deceptive flight,
Steal my soul
That's my desire...

Appearance -
Emblazoned,
Barefoot, Undressed;
Overwhelmed
Swallow me up inside
Expose obsessions,
Venial,
Stressed...
I have nowhere to go
And I don't want to hide...

Brightened,
Wings; Sliding down like the rainbows,
We dance through vein, circles of blood
Burn us both with our fatal blows,
I'll follow till the end of heavenly flood...

Angel,
Descended...
Fall again tomorrow in our bliss,
Whisper to me of futures impossible;
Corrupt me with your secret kiss
We both know it's a thirst - 
Insatiable... 

Once Again...

Once again they're wrapped around me
Rending the way through soul
Once again they start to consume me
As if burnt by fire in coal...

Once again I'm choked by my anger
Snuffing out the fire of hate
Once again I'm surrounded in darkness
Don't see slight light to abate...

Once again the darkest feelings relapse
Feelings that I used to consist
Once again they try to posses me
But this time I do not resist...

Silence And Your Beauty...

Dark
No light
Just you and me
With night;
The fullness
Gathering around
Don't feel the ground,
When we float
Into that beautiful
Silence...

Have You Ever...

Have you ever felt alone
When you stand within a crowd?
Have you ever felt screaming out
Her name to the world, loud?

Have you ever felt raining inside
When outside there was no cloud?
Have you ever felt like nobody
Though the world was making you proud?

Have you ever felt
Without someone else's presence,
Your life becomes perfume
Without any essence?

White, Black & Grey...

Two ancient enemies, every day and night,
One being black, the other is white,
Fight quite deadly in a persuasive way;
Which one will triumph no one can say...

The white one asks my spirit to heal,
The black one casts with passion to kill;
White, Black - Stop your dispute I say,
Because I am satisfied simply with Grey...